Indeed, it was a blue, blue Christmas without her. I couldn't stop myself from thinking... you're supposed to hang out with loved ones for Christmas, right? So many people take it for granted, thinking "oh hey, that's easy, loved ones are the one thing you always have". But no. Not so easy for some.
Anna is the one thing I really, truly need (not that I'm calling her a thing) but like... I don't have her. It shouldn't be this hard, ya know? If only I could just, like, cuddle with her, and just talk or something simple like that it would be the perfect Christmas in my eyes. But no. I can't even get that much. :(
I guess I'm okay now though. I'ma keep on truckin'. Perseverance! I don't care if it sounds creepy or not, I know I'll get her someday.
Coffee Crew
Nick Bate's Web Comic the Coffee Crew
Monday, January 4, 2010
THIS FORTNIGHT'S SUMMARY
music: The Beatles - I Am the Walrus | Powered by Last.fm
I love that word. Fortnight.
Anyway, Christmas happened! I generally try not to get my hopes up for anything special, but of course I still write a list anyway. Didn't get anything on it, though. But I still got a new TV and some DS games and stuff, so it was alright.
Lesser things I got were clothes, AVON products, candy, a DVD, and coffee creamer. Oh, and gift cards to McDonald's and FYE.
I also got a bit depressed by the realization that Christmas is supposed to be a time where you hang out with loved ones, and my loved ones are all thousands of miles away and I'm instead forced to live with people I depise. I forgot aboot all that pretty quickly, though, as I then contracted chronic nausea that lasted a little over a week. I'm better now, though!
I love that word. Fortnight.
Anyway, Christmas happened! I generally try not to get my hopes up for anything special, but of course I still write a list anyway. Didn't get anything on it, though. But I still got a new TV and some DS games and stuff, so it was alright.
Lesser things I got were clothes, AVON products, candy, a DVD, and coffee creamer. Oh, and gift cards to McDonald's and FYE.
I also got a bit depressed by the realization that Christmas is supposed to be a time where you hang out with loved ones, and my loved ones are all thousands of miles away and I'm instead forced to live with people I depise. I forgot aboot all that pretty quickly, though, as I then contracted chronic nausea that lasted a little over a week. I'm better now, though!
Sunday, December 20, 2009
WRITER'S BLOCK: HONESTY IS SUCH A LONELY WORD
December 20th, 2009
WRITER'S BLOCK: HONESTY IS SUCH A LONELY WORD
YES. If you're in a relationship, you shouldn't be lying or hiding things from your partner. A strong relationship is one in which you can be comfortable with being completely open with each other, even if what you're open about isn't exactly good news.
But unfortunately, I've learned thehard way that being open and honest kinda repels people from you. So... maybe you should actually be in a relationship before you're completely open. And by that I don't mean lie to people, but... don't blurt out how much you love crossdressing or how small your penis is unless it's absolutely necessary and until the person you're telling is already really close to you.
But unfortunately, I've learned the
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Memories~
So, I'm reading over my 200+ logs I saved from my conversations with Anna, and I've gotta say... I was pretty annoying back then. Like, in late 2006/early 2007 I was constantly reminding her that she was supposed to call me. (Eventually she finally did. Twice.) And it seems like most of our conversations have at least one instance of me asking her to marry me or play PS2 nekkid while I watch and jack off to it or whatever, and her just saying "maybe", all mundane-like. She probably thought I was annoying, too, but just didn't want to say it.
Then I began wondering. How long did this go on? Was I still like this in August of 2008, when she blocked me? Could this have been the reason?
Of course, I've changed now, but I assume that she still thinks I'm like that. But damn, how can I prove I've changed after being annoying for so long?
Then I began wondering. How long did this go on? Was I still like this in August of 2008, when she blocked me? Could this have been the reason?
Of course, I've changed now, but I assume that she still thinks I'm like that. But damn, how can I prove I've changed after being annoying for so long?
Phil comments on Anna's LJ!
Okay, so yeah, it was me. I completely forgot that account existed until I read the log of when we started doing it. I was gonna do another comment being like, "Is it Nick? Or am I really your cartoon crush, giving you sound advice? OooOoooOOOooo!" but apparently she blocked all the BS accounts. So yeah.
But seriously, Anna, Phil speaks the truth. I love you. Why won't you at least give me a chance? And I mean damn, the fact that we worked on that project together should give you a hint. We used to be such good friends... always doing fun little projects like that together. What happened to those days, huh?
As a side note, does Anna actually read this blog? Because she probably should. I need a way to communicate things to her.
Ed Note: Pic is no longer there.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
WRITER'S BLOCK: PASSWORD PROTECTED
December 16th, 2009
WRITER'S BLOCK: PASSWORD PROTECTED
It wouldn't matter in the least. Most of my emails are either automated things from Twitter, Facebook, etc. alerting me when things
In the rare event I do exchange
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